my life in marysville

hey, blog.

it's been a few weeks, but i'm checking in because i don't want so much of this experience to blaze by without documenting it somehow.

here's the long list of feelings i can recall at this moment in time...

...fear (that no one would show up at our first service or that we'd forget something or fail somehow)
...excitement (dreams coming true and all!)
...disbelief that we were actually starting
...grateful (god has been providing in some pretty incredible ways...almost unbelievable)
...heavy hearted (god brought diane into my life...more on that next blog)
...unsure (where will this crazy adventure take us???)
...soul searching (trying to redefine myself as a lead pastor's wife, mom, and friend in the m-ville)
...lonely (no friends, beyond the family...enough said)
...exhausted (crazy times...up late and up early...all for a wonderful great cause and great to see our efforts have been worth it)
...meaning (i have found meaning again...gift set meets need...how i've missed the ministry part of things...thank u, jesus)

so much has been sacrificed. so much has been given. so much money has been spent. so many conversations have been had. so many tears have been cried. so much sleep has been lost.

if we had the chance to do it all over again, i know we would. we'd probably tweak a few things we have learned along the way, but it has all been worth it. when people actually showed up to our carnival, and more importantly, our service, our hearts nearly beat right out of us...somebody felt prompted to show up...and come back, again...and again...and again. we did something right. we were allowed to be used.

thank u, jesus. it feels so good again. how i've missed it.
more to come...

~kim